They say to be a good blogger you should blog on a regular basis….well here I am blogging again …its good to be regular:-)
I am still not sure what a blog is but .........here we go again....
The point to my blog is to connect with people like me who suffer from imposter syndrome or who have never really found their way but wish they could.........I mentioned before I struggle to stand up and say I AM AN ARTIST….so the question is what is an artist…I Googled it …
ARTIST: A person who creates ART (such as painting, sculpture, music, or writing) using conscious skill and creative imagination….I think I am actually going to challenge this point.
On my 54th birthday March 2022 after a year of growing my little business doing clay hearts, decoupage, wooden signs and tea light holders, my husband bought me a watercolour paint, brushes and watercolour paper.
I had never painted before in my life EVER but some how unconsciously I seem to know how to paint…... I picked up the watercolour paint brush and painted.
So here is the challenge to the definition above, it was obviously a conscious act to pick up the brush but it was NOT a conscious act to know how to paint.
I actually can’t draw very well but I love colours and in particularly the way watercolour paint comes together to create the values ….the light and the dark.
So if to be an artist is a conscious skill then I am not an artist :-(
So lets move on to the second part of the definition: creative imagination........... for over 35 years I worked in the corporate world, in an office everyday ….I loved my job and when I became a Project Manager I found my passion in that corporate world …..I loved every minute of that part of my career and in a way I was very creative ….more from a problem solving capacity, working with some great people and living the dream…..so going back to the definition above...... creative imagination then I have always had one of them….as a child I was always told I had a vivid imagination (may be that's the same thing)
So if an artist is being creative....... I AM AN ARTIST ….just unconsciously :-) its still hard to say but its getting easier talking to you about it.
To sound like a total geek painting has changed the way I look at everything around me, I now look at the shadows and the way light hits things, its the light and the dark that creates our form, gives us depth.
My inspiration again was my wonderful rescue hens, their beautiful characters, their light and dark …I just had to paint them.
I look at what I am doing is a journey of discovery …I was actually talking to someone today and it sounded odd that I never engaged in craft/art before 2021 ….nearly a year after loosing my mum. I was just not interested, work came first and it was just something mum did….I wish I had paid more attention, I wish I had given her more support….life is a strange thing and I am sure we all wish we had said or done something we didn’t.
I do have a photo of my mum and dad looking down on me in my studio….I am sure they would be pleased I am finally finding my way, I just wish I had a time machine and I could go back and say to mum ….GOOD JOB, you are so talented and I love everything you do…..but unfortunately that is not going to happen so instead I look up at their photo and know there is a mutual appreciation.
So today with writing this for you ...I think I AM AN ARTIST and I need to own that title. I will talk about my imposter syndrome another day ....I've always had it but again I don't know really what it is just that I have it.....so please come back and we can talk about that another day.
I would love to know what you think about defining yourself and how you have come to terms with what you do and how you manage your ability to stand up AND BEE COUNTED.
Whilst you are here on my little website checking out my blog please please check out my products....I am adding new content every week so always something new to look at and maybe make a sneaky purchase or two.
Wishing you a lovely day and catch up again with you real soon.
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